I have decided that I am going to flat out refuse to let this wall that I recently splat against take me down. It may have taken most of a month and practically 10 pounds to do it but there you go. I have already lost about 4.4 pounds since my doctor’s visit last week.
After realizing the amount of weight that I was starting to gain I went through a mired of emotions. I will be honest here and admit that I came very close to letting myself succumb to the helplessness and dejected feelings. But then I started noticing that not only was I not helping myself, but I was re-gaining the weight and fast. I realized that if I didn’t snap out of it soon I was going to be starting back at the beginning of this whole process all over again. I couldn’t let myself do that.
So I have decided that I am getting myself over this stupid wall even if it’s the last thing I do. I am going to make this happen! And today, for the first time in month and a half I got in my 30 minute biking activity in on my Wii Fit. I didn’t hit the same top mileage that I was hitting but today’s score was within the top 4, which is a bit better then what I set out to do for the day. I knew it was going to be hard so when I started I set a goal to at least make sure my mileage made the top 15 scores.
Imagine my surprise though when I got halfway through my workout and realized that I had missed it. I finally get how people say they enjoy their workouts, because to be honest, I have never really understood that before now. I mean really, who actually finds themselves actually enjoying the all out exhaustion and sweaty grossness that you get from workouts? Well, much to my surprise, me apparently. There is something truly gratifying about taking things into your own hand and taking control over the mess that is your weight. There is a message that the work out speaks. The workout acts like a microphone that announces to the world and yourself that you are going to refuse to stand down and let the fat and the pounds win. I not only can do this, I am doing this! I can lose this weight and it is going to come off.
So to all of you out there struggling or feeling defeated like me, join me in the rebellion! Don’t let this crap win. We CAN do this and we WILL do this! And in the end, we will feel so much better because of it!
